In February I moved to a whole new city. I mean it was hard and all to adjust but I guess im kindov starting to get used to it. I still don't like it much down here but I guess I can't really do much about it. It just sucks though moving from the place I loved and the city I grew up in. I miss it there like crazzy! Its so hard going from a place where you know almost everyone to going to a town where you barley know anyone. Im the type of person that always needs her friends, like my friends mean the world to me.....especially my girls. We stick togther through everything and are always there to help eachother out. I know distance shouldn't always matter but its just super hard not getting to hang out with them all the timee. And omg school... Im not so excited to start school once summer ends. If i was back at my old school I wouldn't mind but here.....not so excited. I want to movee backkkk!

It's about one thirty ish and I'm supposed to be sleeping cuse i have to get up really early tommore for an appointment thats about an hour away but I can't sleep so I thought I'd write a quick blog. The last few days it just seems like every little thing has just been pissing me off and geting on my nerves, and I don't know why. I've been getting upset lately about the littlest things...I guess I'm just fed up with thingss. Hopefully venting in this blog will just get everything out in the open. We'll I'll try and blog every day or every couple of dayss.

LIFE a small four letter word that has so much meaning to it but can be snatched away from someone in a second. Everyone says theres a reason you were put on Earth but im not so convinced...I mean was I put on Earth to go through all this pain? I know we all have our own problems and struggles but i mean theres only so much of it you can take. I also know im still young and have alot of time to figure things out but the shyt I've been through well lets just say its been alot for me to take on. So far I've been pretty strong about the things I've been through....but that last year has been a huge challenge for me. I mean I've tried to stay strong but the last little while I've just been torn apart and lost.

When i was 5. I lost a big part of my life, my mom. My mom was an amazing person and i loved her more than anything. She was a beautiful mother and had a smile and laugh that could brighten up anyones day. When i was younger my mom got sick...really sick and she had to go into the hospital, I was so scared for her. My mom ended up going into a comma and it killed me seeing her like that. When i used to visit her I'd talk to her but it hurt that I never knew if she was able to hear me. I used to cry every night and pray that one day she would come home, and maybe a miracle would make her better. Unfortunatley 2 years later my mom passed away. I'd always wondered why her? Why my mother? Ever since then my life was turned upside down. I had never been the same person after that. I will never forget her and she will remain in my heart forever and ever. I know my moms an angel right now looking down on me, I hope to make her proud.